I am going to begin a new adventure in the next few months. I am fairly excited, but I have some trepidation going on as well. I was hoping you might help me in this new journey.
The month of October will be very busy preparing my house, my family, my friends, and my mind for the month of November because, you see, I have decided to participate, albeit without the huge group, in NaNoWriMo. (National Novel Writing Month). What does that mean? Well, basically that I will be consumed, the whole month of November. with writing my first novel. This is going to take a lot of effort and discipline, which I lack. And I will need to continue working my full-time job.
So, in my home I need to make sure I am "set" with food, cleaning, and laundry needs, for a month, since I am not going to be able to do NEAR what I usually get done. There will be times I will have to wear my scrubs more than one day. Paper plates and plasticware will become the norm. Freezer meals will take the place of slow-simmered crockpot meals. Dusting and vacuuming will have to be put off. And Thanksgiving dinner will have to be at mom's house. (Hope she is OK with that, wink, wink)
My family and friends will have to understand that I will not be "in the loop" for the month. Any free minute I have will be spent getting a few extra words either on paper or in the computer. I will not be able to get on Facebook and check what is going on in my family's and friends' lives - please understand that I love you very dearly and will miss that connection time. I will not be able to sit and visit with my family for hours at a time. I will not be able to come home from a taxing day at work and sit all evening binge watching my favorite shows in order to relax. Please know that all of this is temporary.
My brain and discipline are going to be the hardest to deal with. I have a tendency to be lazy - YES....it IS true! My husband would not agree with me, but I know me....I would MUCH rather sit and veg than sit at a desk and wrack my brain for words that just don't want to come! And as far as the up-coming month goes, I have to do all of the research and take all of the notes I need for my story. I am REALLY in hopes that this will be the best thing I have ever done in my writing - and THAT is a HUGE goal! (no pressure) Look, I am a writer and have been as long as I can remember (mom told me I was writing even at the age of four) and I know this will NOT be an easy feat. But there is one thing that is driving me forward.....THE LORD!!! He is the One Who has commissioned me to do this project. And if He has given me the task, He will provide me with all of the tools needed to complete the task.
So, all of that said.....I am asking that in the next few months, if you would please pray for this journey on which I will embark (notice no dangling participles) and the preparations I will need to make. And if you would like to private message me or email me, I will set aside a day once in a while to read your encouraging words and affirming notations. I count myself blessed to know that each of you reading my blog and keeping me in your thoughts and prayers cares so very much.
Monday, September 28, 2015
Nursing Wounds
This may be the most difficult posting I have written since my humble beginning a little over five years ago. Not so much because of the content but because of what it reveals about me and my character. But, as usual, if someone is helped, then it will all be worth it.
I have a tendency to nurse old wounds. You know what I mean....It's when you take things from the past and dig at them a little, thinking you are helping yourself to the healing process when all you are doing is re-living the hurt,
I find myself ruminating more and reminiscing less. I have had to face some pretty darn challenging times in the last 5 years. Most of them I have put behind me and left them there. Others I put behind me and every now and again, I open that chapter and try to figure them out, waxing philosophical, and attempting to learn and grow. At other times, if I am completely honest with myself, I tell people I have put certain things in the past, when in fact they are still right there in front of me all the time because I keep "nursing" them.
Some people would say "you are doing great to even recognize that fact about yourself." Yeah, well, that may be true, but at the same time they don't have to live in my head and feel the pain I continue to cause myself. Self-inflicted pain is sometimes the worst, isn't it? So Why do I continue on this path? Perhaps it is the only way I know how? Well, that isn't completely true, is it? Maybe it is because there is something that I need to learn and then just let it go? True. I should always be learning from mistakes and heartaches.. But then where is the "let it go" part?
When is the right time to let the things in the past be things in the past and REMAIN there?
I have a tendency to nurse old wounds. You know what I mean....It's when you take things from the past and dig at them a little, thinking you are helping yourself to the healing process when all you are doing is re-living the hurt,
I find myself ruminating more and reminiscing less. I have had to face some pretty darn challenging times in the last 5 years. Most of them I have put behind me and left them there. Others I put behind me and every now and again, I open that chapter and try to figure them out, waxing philosophical, and attempting to learn and grow. At other times, if I am completely honest with myself, I tell people I have put certain things in the past, when in fact they are still right there in front of me all the time because I keep "nursing" them.
Some people would say "you are doing great to even recognize that fact about yourself." Yeah, well, that may be true, but at the same time they don't have to live in my head and feel the pain I continue to cause myself. Self-inflicted pain is sometimes the worst, isn't it? So Why do I continue on this path? Perhaps it is the only way I know how? Well, that isn't completely true, is it? Maybe it is because there is something that I need to learn and then just let it go? True. I should always be learning from mistakes and heartaches.. But then where is the "let it go" part?
When is the right time to let the things in the past be things in the past and REMAIN there?
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